Lente Lunatica

I´m not gonna fade...

2012-02-02T00:59:00.000Z

And I'm here to remind you

Of the mess you left when you went away

It's not fair to deny me

Of the cross I bear that you gave to me

We change by the speed of the choices that we make

2012-01-30T22:57:00.002Z

When we die
We go in to the arms of those
Who remember us
We are home now
Out of our heads
Out of our minds
Out of this world
We're out of this time

Are you drowning or waving?
I just want you to save me
Should we try to get along?
Just try to get along
So we move
We change by the speed of the choices that we make
And the barriers are all self-made
That's so retrograde

Are you drowning or waving?
I just need you to save me
Should we try to get along?
Just try to get along

I am alive
I'm awake to the trials of confusion we create
There were times I feel when we're about to break
When there's too much to say
We are home now
Out of our heads
Out of our minds
Out of this world
We're out of this time
We're out of this time
We're out of this time
We're out of this time.

Just a memory...

2012-01-22T21:09:00.000Z

...

Cansar entristecendo-se

2012-01-17T19:19:00.000Z

"Como é que se esquece alguém que se ama? Como é que se esquece alguém que nos faz falta e que nos custa mais lembrar que viver? Quando alguém se vai embora de repente como é que se faz para ficar? Quando alguém morre, quando alguém se separa - como é que se faz quando a pessoa de quem se precisa já lá não está?

As pessoas têm de morrer; os amores de acabar. As pessoas têm de partir, os sítios têm de ficar longe uns dos outros, os tempos têm de mudar Sim, mas como se faz? Como se esquece? Devagar. É preciso esquecer devagar. Se uma pessoa tenta esquecer-se de repente, a outra pode ficar-lhe para sempre. Podem pôr-se processos e acções de despejo a quem se tem no coração, fazer os maiores escarcéus, entrar nas maiores peixeiradas, mas não se podem despejar de repente. Elas não saem de lá. Estúpidas! É preciso aguentar. Já ninguém está para isso, mas é preciso aguentar. A primeira parte de qualquer cura é aceitar-se que se está doente. É preciso paciência. O pior é que vivemos tempos imediatos em que já ninguém aguenta nada. Ninguém aguenta a dor. De cabeça ou do coração. Ninguém aguenta estar triste. Ninguém aguenta estar sozinho. Tomam-se conselhos e comprimidos. Procuram-se escapes e alternativas. Mas a tristeza só há-de passar entristecendo-se. Não se pode esquecer alguem antes de terminar de lembrá-lo. Quem procura evitar o luto, prolonga-o no tempo e desonra-o na alma. A saudade é uma dor que pode passar depois de devidamente doída, devidamente honrada. É uma dor que é preciso aceitar, primeiro, aceitar.

É preciso aceitar esta mágoa esta moinha, que nos despedaça o coração e que nos mói mesmo e que nos dá cabo do juízo. É preciso aceitar o amor e a morte, a separação e a tristeza, a falta de lógica, a falta de justiça, a falta de solução. Quantos problemas do mundo seriam menos pesados se tivessem apenas o peso que têm em si , isto é, se os livrássemos da carga que lhes damos, aceitando que não têm solução.
Não adianta fugir com o rabo à seringa. Muitas vezes nem há seringa. Nem injecção. Nem remédio. Nem conhecimento certo da doença de que se padece. Muitas vezes só existe a agulha.

Dizem-nos, para esquecer, para ocupar a cabeça, para trabalhar mais, para distrair a vista, para nos divertirmos mais, mas quanto mais conseguimos fugir, mais temos mais tarde de enfrentar. Fica tudo à nossa espera. Acumula-se-nos tudo na alma, fica tudo desarrumado.

O esquecimento não tem arte. Os momentos de esquecimento, conseguidos com grande custo, com comprimidos e amigos e livros e copos, pagam-se depois em condoídas lembranças a dobrar. Para esquecer é preciso deixar correr o coração, de lembrança em lembrança, na esperança de ele se cansar."

(Miguel Esteves Cardoso, in 'Último Volume')

I´m a mess

2012-01-12T23:30:00.000Z

This is all I need
This is what I thought
Now I'm getting closer
To what I really want to have into my life
Good decisions need their time
I made mistakes but their all mine
And you know how I am

Cause I confess I'm a mess
We all try to take the best
We want more self-assured
But on the inside
We never rest it's all a test
I never found out what's the best
I can try but I don't know how to end this

I'm afraid of more
I'm afraid of less
And I'm in a quandary
When someone tries to offer me a better chance
I never had confidence
Try to show some understanding
You know how I am

Cause I confess I'm a mess
We all try to take the best
We want more self-assured
But on the inside
We never rest it's all a test
I never found out what's the best
I can try but I don't know how to end this

So take it all away
I stand in my own way
I scream I don't need help
So force me or I'll break
Cause I'm so full of doubt
I'm lost into the crowd
And when I'm on my own
I'm searching for a place to call my home

This is all I need
This is what I thought
Now I'm getting closer
To what I really want to have into my life
Good decisions need their time
I made mistakes but their all mine
And you know how I am

Cause I confess I'm a mess
We all try to take the best
We want more self-assured
But on the inside
We never rest it's all a test
I never found out what's the best
I can try but I don't know how to end this

I can´t take what your doing to me (Distance)

2012-01-07T04:06:00.000Z

This hunger is growing higher, as I built myself up to a new being. And when I get my cure, I will feel this hunger growing higher and higher between the distance. And I don´t know if I´m gonna make this through all this distance between us.

Carpe Diem - Sem prazos nem regras

2012-01-04T03:24:00.000Z

Antes de ti eu tinha prazos para tudo, horas e momentos. Calma e paciência para colocar tudo no seu lugar. Perfeição nas coisas feitas com calma. Mas quando você veio eu esqueci tudo. Eu não ligo mais a prazos, a horas, a momentos e planos, a tudo correcto e perfeito no seu lugar. Eu deixo as coisas fluírem, eu vivo a vida ao máximo. Pela primeira vez, eu consigo fazer prática do muito citado "Carpe Diem".

Minhas escolhas no presente não devem ser julgadas, pois carrego atrás das costas a dor de um passado. Já sofri por alguém que nunca pensei dizer adeus, já chorei e acreditei que uma pessoa fosse ficar comigo para sempre e desiludi-me, caí. Tudo é efémero, e o passado ensinou-me a receber o que o presente nos dá, pois não sabemos se o amanhã virá. Com você foi diferente. Eu não esperei! Eu agarrei o momento e continuo a agarrar os momentos e a desfiar o tempo, não tenho calma, não tenho paciência nem paro para pensar se está tudo no seu devido lugar, se está tudo perfeito. A vida não tem de ser perfeita. E a efemeridade da vida deve ser vivida com um "carpe diem" no topo do bolo! Acredito num futuro? Sim, acredito no meu futuro! Mas com você tudo será diferente...eu deixarei as coisas fluírem sem hora nem local, sem pés nem cabeça. E é isso que é viver, arriscar sem medo sem se entregar totalmente.

What goes around comes around

2011-12-26T21:34:00.001Z

Hey Girl,
Is he everything you wanted in a man?
You know I gave you the world
You had me in the palm of your hand

So, why the love went away?
I just can't seem to understand
Thought it was me and you, baby
Me and you until the end
But I guess I was wrong

Don't wanna think about it(uh)
Don't wanna talk about it(uh)
I'm just so sick about it
I can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it(uh)
Feeling the blues about it(yeah)
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair

...

It's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
But that's ok, baby
'Cause in time you will find

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around

...

Broken soul

2011-12-22T03:39:00.000Z

Recaída. Já ouviram falar? É como ter o mundo todo nas mãos e de repente tudo desabar. A dor volta, as memórias, o sofrimento. A escuridão abarca de novo todo o meu ser. É cruel e duro. Sente-se que o melhor é desistir, voltar atrás, recolher-me no meu canto escuro e não fazer nada. Deste um passo em frente? Ora aqui está a razão de o teres feito, de novo a assombrar-te. E desabas. Cais. A força com que deste um passo em frente cede e a tua fraqueza volta a tentar ensinar-te aquilo que teimaste em aprender. Mas não aprendeste nada. E a recaída é prova disso. Avançaste e seguiste em frente para quê? Continuas completamente destroçada por dentro. A tua alma e o teu coração completamente fragmentada em pedaços, e a recaída serve para te relembrar disso. Não, não estás "curada"! Continuas com a tua alma "doente"! É uma doença de tal modo grave que se entranha em todo o teu ser, e crês ser quase impossível ter cura. Dói. Corrói-te todo o teu ser. E amanhã vais levantar-te e erguer a cabeça, vais voltar à tua vida que criaste quando avançaste, e vais sorrir, vais voltar a ter forças. Mas no fundo, a tua alma vai sempre estar doente, e tu sabes que podes ocultar a doença. Por ti, pelos outros. Mas não vais arranjar cura. As recaídas vão ser sempre inevitáveis, e elas existem como um grito da tua alma "Eu continuo destroçada, eu não estou bem". Mas a seguir à recaída vais sempre dizer a ti própria "Eu estou bem, e com o tempo vou estar melhor ainda". Mas o tempo não cura nada, ele apenas disfarça e faz doer menos, mas a doença...essa vai lá estar sempre.

Run with me through rows of speeding cars

2011-12-10T23:46:00.001Z

Here's the day you hoped would never come
Don't feed me violins
just run with me through rows of speeding cars.
The papercuts the cheating lovers
The coffee's never strong enough
i know you think it's more than just bad luck

There there baby
it's just text book stuff
it's in the ABC of growing up
Now, now darling
oh don't lose your head
cause none of us were angels
and you know I love you yeah

Sleeping pills know sleeping dogs lie
never far enough away
Glistening in the cold sweat of guilt
I've watched you slowly winding down for years
You can't keep on like this...
now's a bad a time as any

There there baby
it's just text book stuff
it's in the ABC of growing up
Now now darling
oh don't kill yourself
cause none of us were angels
and you know I love you yeah....

I tried so hard And got so far But in the end It doesn´t even matter...

2011-12-06T00:10:00.001Z

(It starts with one)
One thing I don't know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It’s so unreal
Didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on but didn’t even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go

I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

One thing, I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so (far)
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end

You kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

I can breathe for the first time/Now I get what I want

2011-11-25T03:30:00.001Z

Here's the thing
We started out friends
It was cool, but it was all pretend
Yeah, yeah, since you've been gone
You're dedicated, you took the time
Wasn't long 'til I called you mine
Yeah, yeah, since you've been gone
And all you'd ever hear me say
Is how I picture me with you
That's all you'd ever hear me say

But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you, now I get what I want
Since you've been gone

How can I put it, you put me on
I even fell for that stupid love song
Yeah, yeah, since you've been gone
How come I'd never hear you say
I just wanna be with you
Guess you never felt that way

But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin' on, yeah, yeah
Thanks to you, now I get, I get what I want
Since you've been gone

You had your chance, you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth, I just can't take it
Again and again and again and again

Since you've been gone (since you've been gone)
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get, I get what I want
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin' on, yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get (I get)
You should know (you should know) that I get
I get what I want

Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone

Fall in love with the world over again

2011-11-18T22:32:00.001Z

Four to the floor
Was the answer
Me on my knees
Like a dancer
Heartbreaker, you match me

You see the minds on the air
Call him mister vain
Fever, catch me

Four to the floor
In the state of the art
Our feet come down in pattern

And do you feel the rage?
I'm so glad you came
Oh, feelings are natural

When you're flying low over cities of love
Over cities of dreams, yeah
When you're watching the waves in country towns

That are amazing
When you get in the vibe
When you're moving inside
When you know what I mean, yeah
When you getting the vibe
When you're moving inside

And, oh, let it go
What you know
What they say
Fall in love with the world over again
Eating alone and in tribes tastes amazing
Eating alone, watch it grow

2011-11-18T22:29:00.001Z

Now I do understand the meaning of this...Do you remember the moment in the rain?...I still do, and I still miss you...

If you prefer...

2011-11-04T01:19:00.005Z

If you are so frequently in love
If you prefer it all to me then my love
You go down the longest road to nowhere
You pull it apart and you’re just left there

Giddy up and gold mine, horse dust down time
It’s my life, it’s my time, we’ve been gettin’ nowhere
Gold mine, different place, different time

Where are you?

2011-11-01T01:15:00.002Z

Woke up with this cover. In my dreams a boy. A strange boy. I fell in love with. We fell in love with. A strong passion. Do you exist? Or is just a mind trick?

It´s too late...I´m into you

2011-10-31T00:20:00.000Z

Every finish line is the beginning of a new race...

Let me fall into your hands

2011-10-27T22:02:00.000+01:00

Would you catch me if I fall
Deep in the dark of me
And shape my tears into butterflies

A perfection that no-one seized

I awake let me suffocate
Can't breathe right now
I'm begging and screaming
Let me out!

I run, I fall, I try but I break
I'm crying, I'm screaming
Let me out!

Let me fall into your hands
Take me up make me shine again
Let me fall into your hands

I escape, let me suffocate
Can't see right now...
I'm blind with despair, help me out
I'm dreaming, insane, I'm running away
Can't take it, I'm screaming
Let me out!

Let me fall into your hands
Take me up make me shine again
Let me fall into your hands

Embrace my skin, erase the sorrow
Encourage me to see tomorrow
And let me fall into your hands

It's like I've been awakened Every rule I had you breakin'

2011-10-26T23:08:00.001+01:00

Remember those walls I built
Well, baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make up a sound

I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now

It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm takin'
I ain't never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light

I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't forget
To pull me back to the ground again
Feels like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
The risk that I'm takin'
I'm never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
Halo, halo

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

You turned out to be the best thing I never had

2011-10-21T23:58:00.000+01:00

What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)

There was a time
I thought, that you did everything right
No lies, no wrong
Boy I, must've been outta my mind
So when I think of the time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and I, I saw the real you

Thank God you blew it
Thank God I dodged the bullet
I'm so over you
So baby good lookin' out

I wanted you bad
I'm so through with that
Cuz honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
You turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I'm gon' always be the best thing you never had
I bet it sucks to be you right now

So sad, you're hurt
Boo hoo, oh, did you expect me to care?
You don't deserve my tears
I guess that's why they ain't there
To think that there was a time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and baby yes I saw the real you

I am lost...

2011-10-16T23:59:00.000+01:00

My feelings in words (by Margarida Rebelo Pinto)

2011-10-16T02:23:00.000+01:00

"Quando uma mulher gosta mesmo de um homem aguenta tudo, espera o tempo que for preciso, não há nada que não faça para poder ficar com ele."

‎"Ela gosta dele, ele gosta dela mas ele tem alma de pássaro, gosta de voar e não se sente preparado para assentar e mesmo sabendo isso ela ama, ela entrega-se, ela dá tudo, ela sabe que um dia ele vai embora mas quer aproveitar cada momento e quando esse dia chega ela sente-se perdida, sem rumo, não importa a distância, não importa o que nos digam, quando se ama acreditamos sempre que é possível e que um dia o mundo vira e as coisas acontecem do jeito que nós sempre sonhamos..." (Margarida Rebelo Pinto - Alma de Pássaro).

"Mostrar fraqueza é uma forma de mostrar força."

"Eu vou ter que me habituar a viver sem ele, mesmo que isso represente que só consiga separar os dias das noites pela luz do sol, que quase morra, continuando viva, que os meus olhos, todos os dias se levantem para o ver cruzar os céus."

"Saboreava os teus regressos como momentos eternos e irrepetiveis - e percebi que tinha descoberto a essência do amor.Hoje apetece-me pensar que me enganaste, que nunca me amaste, e que, em vez disso andaste a brincar, ainda que de uma forma séria."

"Não sei nem quando nem como vou conseguir libertar-me de ti e limpar-te da minha memória sem contudo te apagar do meu coração. Sei que tudo tem um fim e que o sofrimento também, mas agora vejo tudo enevoado."

"Amar alguém é deixá-lo partir, olhar o céu e ver na dança da lua um momento qualquer em que talvez voltes, sem nada pedir, nem nunca esperar."

"Eu tenho que deixar de gostar daquele diabo viajante. Mas como? Como é que se esquece alguém? Como é que se apaga a memória dos sentidos? Como é que se lava a alma e se limpa o coração?"

"Já não quero saber, já não tenho medo de o perder, porque já o perdi há muito tempo, só ainda não tinha querido aceitar tal evidência."

"Estou possuída por uma febre de raiva e tristeza e não sei mais o quê."

"Prefiro o silêncio e a ausência à tristeza das sombras. Tenho, de uma vez por todas, que assumir que o meu sonho acabou. Amanhã, acordo e começo a mentalizar-me que a minha vida continua sem ele e que vai correr tudo bem. Mas hoje, só quero dormir, esquecer a dor e limpar o coração. Isto não é viver e eu tenho que continuar viva, inventar uma vontade que não tenho e obedecer-lhe cegamente. Talvez nem seja assim tão difícil. Quando se continua vivo depois de morrer, é fácil ser-se obediente."

"O medo voltou outra vez e instalou-se numa cadeira, aos pés da minha cama. Olha para mim todas as noites antes, antes de me deixar adormecer, e diz, com voz de mulher: Não vais cometer os mesmos erros pois não?"

"Amar deve ser isto: deixar partir aqueles que amamos, porque, se os amamos, já os temos para sempre connosco. Amar talvez seja a melhor forma de ter alguém, e ter alguém talvez seja a pior forma de amar."

"O homem certo é o que quiser estar mesmo ao teu lado, incondicionalmente. O que gostar de ti sempre, que te acompanhe para o que der e vier. Não é o que olha todos os dias para ti e te diz que és linda e que és o amor da vida dele, mas alguém que olha por ti todos os dias, percebes? E é esse homem que merece todo o amor que sentes agora, não é um miúdo convencido que é o maior, que nem sequer te sabe tratar bem."

"O Miguel não foi um caso, não foi mais um namorado, uma tentativa, um acidente de percurso. Foi só e apenas a pessoa que mais amei em toda a minha vida, com quem me dei melhor e com quem fui mais feliz. E esquecê-lo é agora o meu maior desafio. Como é que não sei."

One still in love while the other one's leaving...

2011-10-15T23:40:00.000+01:00

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Coz she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks
no it don't break even, even no.

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain,
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains, oh.
'Coz you left me with no love, with no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing,
Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in,
'Coz I got time while she got freedom,
'Coz when a heart breaks
no it don't break, no it don't
break, no it don't break even no.

Though I tried and tried and tried The wind came from your lungs A hurricane from your tongue

2011-10-15T21:14:00.000+01:00

I've given to you, babe, all my love...

2011-10-14T18:18:00.002+01:00

2011-10-13T23:48:00.001+01:00

The fear that I will never find a way to heal my soul...

And I will endure till the end of time torn away from you...

I have lost you forever...

2011-10-13T20:16:00.000+01:00

Hoje brotou do fundo do meu ser, os sentimentos mais profundos e escondidos que eu já não consigo mais sentir conscientemente. Sentimentos que bloqueei para me proteger a mim própria. Sentimentos que se encontram guardados na gaveta do passado e que eu impeço de saírem para que eu possa seguir em frente com a minha vida. E foi inconscientemente que eles voltaram com uma força renovada que eu há muito não sentia. Em sonhos eu acordei chorando, sem saber porquê, inconscientemente eu lembrava do sentimento que me tinha causado tal choro: a perda e a saudade. Eu sonhava que te via e com medo de que te tinha perdido e não mais poderia estar contigo, com aquela pessoa com a qual eu sempre quis ficar, a pessoa pela qual me apaixonei, não a que me desiludiu e me deixou de amar. E o medo de nunca mais poder estar contigo, nunca mais poder partilhar um único momento juntos, fez com que as lágrimas brotassem inconscientemente, ao qual me dei a brota-las ao acordar, confusa pela razão de tal choro. Perdi-te para sempre e não mais vou poder estar contigo, mas conscientemente preciso de bloquear esse sentimento de perda, de dor, de sofrimento, preciso de viver, de seguir em frente...

There was hope Now it´s gone...

2011-10-13T01:15:00.000+01:00

How cold is the heart
My world is on fire
How deep is the mark
When you leave and your dream turn to water
I let myself feel
I'm wishing for something real

We are
We are
Chasing a shadow
We are
We are
Lost in the shame
You try to hide only to reach out
It's too late

With a smile you move on
Every fear left unspoken
There was hope
Now it's gone
So believe there is love in the open
You just have to let go and turn into something real

We are
We are
Chasing a shadow
We are
We are
Lost in the shame
You try to hide only to reach out
It's too late

Break the shade
See your hate
Black flames
No names
Who are you?
Janette said.

We are
We are
Chasing a shadow
We are
We are
Lost in the shame
You try to hide only to reach out
It's too late

I never meant to start a war

2011-10-04T02:46:00.000+01:00

Don't try to explain your mind
I know what's happening here
One minute it's love
And suddenly it's like a battlefield

One word turns into a war
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down
My world's nothing when you gone
I'm not here without a shield
Can't go back now

Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
Why we gotta fall for it now
I never meant to start a war
You know I'd never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for

Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield? (x2)
Why does love always feel like..

Can't swallow our pride,
Neither of us wanna raise that flag, mhmm
If we can't surrender then we both gonna lose what we had, oh no

Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
I don't wanna fall for it now
I never meant to start a war
You know I'd never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for

Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield? (x2)

I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor
I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor
I guess you better go and get your...

We could pretend that we are friends tonight (oh-oh-oh)
And in the morning we'll wake up and we'll be alright
Cause baby we don't have to fight
And I don't want this love to feel like..

A battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield,
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield

I guess you better go and get your armor...

I never meant to start a war
You know I'd never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for (fighting, fighting for)

Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield? (x2)

I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor
I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor

Why does love always feel like...
Why does love always feel like...
A battlefield, a battlefield..

I never meant
to start a war
Don't even know
What we're fighting for

Where are you my soulmate?

2011-09-27T23:12:00.001+01:00

People change so much, that when we try to find deep down the one we knew, we only get tired...

Where are you my love? Where are the one I fell in love with? I can´t see him anymore, even If I try so hard to find him, he´s just not there anymore. The new guy keeps mocking me for trying and that just proves he´s not there anymore.

I´m so damn lost

2011-09-25T23:38:00.000+01:00

I've been left out alone
Like a damn criminal
I've been praying for help
'Cause I can't take it all
I'm not done? It's not over?

Now I'm fighting this war
Since the day of the fall
And I'm desperately holding on to it all
But I'm lost, I'm so damn lost

Oh I wish it was over
And I wish you were here
Still I'm hoping that somehow

'Cause your soul is on fire
A shot in the dark
What did they aim for when they missed your heart?
I breathe underwater
It's all in my hands
What can I do?
Don?t let it fall apart
A shot in the dark?
A shot in the dark?

In the blink of an eye
I can see through your eyes
As I'm lying awake I'm still hearing the cries
And it hurts, hurts me so bad

And I?m wondering why I still fight in this life
'Cause I?ve lost all my faith in this damn bitter strife
And it?s sad... It?s so damn sad

Oh I wish it was over
And I wish you were here
Still I'm hoping that somehow

[CHORUS]

I feel you fading away
I feel you fading away
I feel you fading away
I feel you fading away

[CHORUS 2X]

A shot in the dark?
A shot in the dark?
A shot in the dark?
A shot in the dark?

Well I´ve got nothing left to prove

2011-09-23T00:40:00.000+01:00

So you feel entitled to a sense of control
And make decisions that you think are your own
You are a stranger here, why have you come
Why have you come, lift me higher, let me look at the sun

Look at the sun and once I hear them clearly say
Who who are you really?
And where are you going?
Well I've got nothing left to prove
Cause I've got nothing left to lose
See me bare my teeth for you
Who who are you?

Now you're moving on and then you say you're alone
Suspicious that this string is moving your bones
We are the fire we see how they run
See how they run, lift me higher, let me look at the sun

Look at the sun and once I hear them clearly say
Who who are you really?
And where are you going?
Well I've got nothing left to prove
Cause I've got nothing left to lose
See me bare my teeth for you
See me bare my teeth

Who who are you really?
And where are you going?
Well I've got nothing left to prove
Cause I've got nothing left to lose
See me bare my teeth for you
Who who are you ?

Shattered pieces

2011-09-21T23:25:00.001+01:00

You are worthless...you broke my heart a million times, I came back so many times with him so shattered, and now, right after you broke my heart in pieces again, you want me to fight for what I feel! Are you insane? What do I gain for fighting for a person who just "likes me", not even knows if I´m the one, and surely knows that I do not complete him! Are you joking with me? Are you playing with my heart like you don´t care?
You don´t deserve me at all, not even my broken hearted soul that you´ve shattered in pieces....
Goodbye, and find the one you´re looking for, cause for sure, it´s not me, cause If I was, you sure new that!It´s time to go...

Change, open your eyes to the light

2011-09-21T01:00:00.000+01:00

I will wander 'til the end of time, torn away from you.
I pull away to face the pain.I close my eyes and drift away.Over the fear that I will never findA way to heal my soul.And I will wander 'til the end of timeTorn away from you.
My heart is brokenSweet sleep, my dark angelDeliver us from sorrow’s holdOr from my hard heart.
I can’t go on living this wayAnd I can’t go back the way I cameShamed of this fear that I will never findA way to heal my soulAnd I will wander 'til the end of timeHalf a life without you
My heart is brokenSweet sleep, my dark angelDeliver us
Change - open your eyes to the lightI’ve been denying for so long, oh so longSay goodbye, goodbye
My heart is brokenRelease me, I can’t hold onDeliver usMy heart is brokenSweet sleep, my dark angelDeliver usMy heart is brokenSweet sleep, my dark angelDeliver us from sorrow’s hold

We´re far from home

2011-09-19T22:57:00.003+01:00

Here comes the big question: Have I chose the right one?They say that sometimes you have to choose what is the best for you, even if you love what´s been hurting you, chose the other choice, in time you will get to see it was the right one. But the truth is, in reality, to choose the second choice is hardly 90% of the cases. In my case I chose the first one, and now I´m starting to think if it was the right one. I never meant to be between anything of this, but I am...I have to stop to pretending I´m not confused about this, because I can´t deny: I have two choices confusing my mind.

I won't give up on you

I can feel you in my heart just show me the way
I don't belong here
Alone
I can still see your faceWhere it's burned into my mindI die every timeI close my eyes you're always there

I´ve been screaming on the inside. Can you hear me?

2011-09-18T14:24:00.001+01:00

Thought that I was strong
I know the words to say
Frozen in my veins
I let the moment slip away

I've been screaming
On the inside
And I know you feel the pain
Can you heal me?
Can you hear me?
Haaa...

Say it's over,
Yes it's over
But I need you anyway
Say you love me but it's not enough

Never been too right
But I'm not the girl you think you know
The more that I'm with you
The more that I am all alone

I've been screaming
On the inside
And I know you feel the pain
Can you heal me?
Can you hear me?
Haaa...

Say it's over,
Yes it's over
But I need you anyway
Say you love me but it's not enough

How could I set you free?
Don't deny,
Don't say you don't remember
What we used to be
How did I forgive you?
The change!
And I'm lying by your side
I'm about to lose my mind

'Cause I've been screaming
On the inside
And I know you feel the pain
Can you heal me?
Can you hear me?
Haaa...

You've been dreaming
If you're thinking
That I still belong to you
I'll be dying,
'Cause I'm lying to myself!
Haaa...

Say it's over,
Yes it's over
But I need you anyway
Say you love me but it's not enough

I'm drowning in the mess that I have made

2011-09-17T00:26:00.000+01:00

It's too late to change your mind
Even though this fragile world is tearing apart at the seams
You can't wash these sins away
A sinking feeling every day
I'm waking up in someone else's life

Is it so hard for you
Cause it's so hard for me
To believe in what we dreamed
Could ever come to life again
Cause I cannot erase this lie

I'm not gonna let this day go by
I'm gonna save this wasted life
And nothing can stand in my way
Not enough to say goodbye
Run until there's nothing left
I'm drowning in the mess that I have made

Is it so hard for you
Cause it's so hard for me
To believe in what we dreamed
Could ever come to life again
Cause I cannot erase this lie

Someone hear me
The water's rising around us
There is no other way down
I only have myself to blame
For it all

Is it so hard for you
Cause it's so hard for me
To believe in what we dreamed
Could ever come to life again
If I could just erase my mind
But I cannot erase this lie

I´m a million miles from you

2011-09-15T01:45:00.002+01:00

To walk this streets without you
I hate being on my own

So many souls around you

But it never feels like home

Home is where my heart is aching

Home
Home is where there's no mistaking

All this space between us

Isn't going anywhere

But it's ok to be us

Cause your far from being here

Here is where the sky gets lonely

Here

Here I dissappear

I'm a million miles from you

But if we hold on

Gotta hold on

I'm a million miles from you

But if we stay strong

I know we'll make it through

All this time is passing

But every day's the same

So much shadow casting

I don't wanna place the blame

Cause the blame is just a mixed emotion

Blame

Blame it on the fear

I'm a million miles from you

But if we hold on

Gotta hold on

I'm a million miles from you

But if we stay strong

I know we'll make it through

Now the distance alone can change us

I've been lying to myself

It's the moments apart that make us

See who we both really are

When I'm a million miles from you

But if we hold on

Gotta hold on

I'm a million miles from you

But if we stay strong

I know we'll make it through

I know we'll see it through

I'm a million miles from you

But if we stay strong

I know we'll make it through

I'm a million miles from you

I know we'll make it through

Gotta stay strong

Gotta be strong

You're a million miles away

I have nothing left And all I feel is this cruel wanting

2011-09-13T23:13:00.001+01:00

I´ve been dreaming about you every night, every time I get some sleep, and I get tired when I wake up and you´re not here...

2011-09-10T01:04:00.000+01:00

Karma is a bitch..and it will get someday to you...for all that you´ve done to me...for all my suffer...
:(

I try to make you see my side But your eyes see right through That's all they do.

2011-09-07T23:52:00.002+01:00

I´m invisible to you...and you don´t care about me...why do I still care?

"Esta coisa de gostar de alguém"

2011-09-05T22:23:00.003+01:00

«Esta coisa de gostar de alguém não é para todos e, por vezes – em mais casos do que se possa imaginar – existem pessoas que pura e simplesmente não conseguem gostar de ninguém. Esperem lá, não é que não queiram – querem! – mas quando gostam – e podem gostar muito – há sempre qualquer coisa que os impede. Ou porque a estrada está cortada para obras de pavimentação. Ou porque sofremos de diabetes e não podemos abusar dos açucares. Ou porque sim e não falamos mais nisto. Há muita gente que não pode comer crustáceos, verdade? E porquê? Não faço ideia, mas o médico diz que não podemos porque nascemos assim e nós, resignados, ao aproximar-se o empregado de mesa com meio quilo de gambas que faz favor, vamos dizendo: “Nem pensar, leve isso daqui que me irrita a pele”.

Ora, por vezes, o simples facto de gostarmos de alguém pode provocar-nos uma alergia semelhante. E nós, sabendo-o, mandamos para trás quando estávamos mortinhos por ir em frente. Não vamos.. E muitas das vezes, sabendo deste nosso problema, escolhemos para nós aquilo que sabemos que, invariavelmente, iremos recusar. Daí existirem aquelas pessoas que insistem em afirmar que só se apaixonam pelas pessoas erradas. Mentira. Pensar dessa forma é que é errado, porque o certo é perceber que se nós escolhemos aquela pessoa foi porque já sabíamos que não íamos a lado nenhum e que – aqui entre nós – é até um alívio não dar em nada porque ia ser uma chatice e estava-se mesmo a ver que ia dar nisto. E deu. Do mesmo modo que no final de 10 anos de relacionamento, ou cinco, ou três, há o hábito generalizado de dizermos que aquela pessoa com quem nós nos casámos já não é a mesma pessoa, quando por mais que nos custe, é igualzinha. O que mudou – e o professor Júlio Machado Vaz que se cuide – foram as expectativas que nós criamos em relação a ela. Impressionados?

Pois bem, se me permitem, vou arregaçar as mangas. O que é difícil – dizem – é saber quando gostam de nós. E, quando afirmam isto, bebo logo dois dry martinis para a tosse. Saber quando gostam de nós? Mas com mil raios, isso é o mais fácil porque quando se gosta de alguém não há desculpas nem “ ai que amanhã não dá porque tenho muito trabalho”, nem “ ai que hoje era bom mas tenho outra coisa combinada” nem “ ai que não vi a tua chamada não atendida”.

Quando se gosta de alguém – mas a sério, que é disto que falamos – não há nada mais importante do que essa outra pessoa. E sendo assim, não há sms que não se receba porque possivelmente não vimos, porque se calhar estava a passar num sítio sem rede, porque a minha amiga não me deu o recado, porque não percebi que querias estar comigo, porque recebi as flores mas pensava não serem para mim, porque não estava em casa quando tocaste.

Quando se gosta de alguém temos sempre rede, nunca falha a bateria, nunca nada nos impede de nos vermos e nem de nos encontrarmos no meio de uma multidão de gente. Quando se gosta de alguém não respondemos a uma mensagem só no final do dia, não temos acidentes de carro, nem nunca os nossos pais se sentiram mal a ponto de nos impossibilitarem o nosso encontro. Quando se gosta de alguém, ouvimos sempre o telefone, a campainha da porta, lemos sempre a mensagem que nos deixaram no vidro embaciado do carro desse Inverno rigoroso. Quando se gosta de alguém – e estou a escrever para os que gostam - vamos para o local do acidente com a carta amigável, vamos ter com ela ao corredor do hospital ver como estão os pais, chamamos os bombeiros para abrirem a porta, mas nada, nada nos impede de estar juntos, porque nada nem ninguém é mais importante, do que nós.»

Fernando Alvim

Incompatible, it no matter thought

2011-08-31T23:27:00.000+01:00

I love you even when we´re angry with each other...you don´t...I don´t believe you´re the one...not anymore...

I want so much to open your eyes 'Cause I need you to look into mine

2011-08-25T23:08:00.002+01:00

I thought this love would last forever (Tired of waiting)

2011-08-25T00:31:00.001+01:00

He waits for her to understand

But she won't understand at all

She waits all night for him to call

But he won't call anymore

He waits to hear her say

Forgive

But she just drops her pearl-black eyes

And prays to hear him say

I love you

But he tells no more lies

He waits for her to sympathize

But she won't sympathize at all

She waits all night to feel his kiss

But always wakes alone

He waits to hear her say

Forget

But she just hangs her head in pain

And prays to hear him say

No more

I'll never leave again

How did we get this far apart? We used to be so close together How did we get this far apart? I thought this love would last forever
He waits for her to understand

But she won't understand at all

She waits all night for him to call

But we won't call

He waits to hear her say

Forgive

But she just drops her pearl-black eyes

And prays to hear him say

I love you

But he tells no more lies
How did we get this far apart? We used to be so close together How did we get this far apart? I thought this love would last forever

Don't you ever wonder how we've survived?

2011-08-24T00:01:00.001+01:00

I´m speechless. Your words hurt me so much. And you kept saying the truth is to be heard, and that you´re sorry about me being hurt about the truth you´re throwing at me, but what I see is a selfish person that don´t care at all about me, and what I think about this. For sure you think I am the same girl you´ve met long ago. Well, you´re wrong. You have doubts if I am the one, you have doubts if I am the person you want to live with, who wants to share a lifetime. You think I live in a dream which you criticized so much. Well hun, if I lived in a dream then I wasn´t here, giving all I have just for you, and you don´t even deserve that. And what you´re sure? That you love me...Is that enough? No, that´s all bullshit for me. You need time to get there, to get to the certainties of us and of me. You don´t know if it´s me, even if you love me...you don´t even see what you have, a person who´ll do everything for you, who loves you unconditionally, all it cares for you is a job, is money, is to believe me and trust me, and you don´t. So does love matters when it´s missing in you all this shit? Think about it. For you I am young and I need to grow up a little, you didn´t said, but for you I am, as always I have been, a little girl stupidly in love with you, that don´t understand reality, that only believe in fairy tales. You´re so wrong it hurt so much. I don´t know if you deserve me at all. Not even my undying love. You want me to give you time, and I just don´t know now if your worth for me to give you time, and I always have waiting for you, for your certainties, for you to see I am the one. I guess you never will. We´re not in the same page, and maybe I´m wasting my time with someone that don´t deserve me, not even my love. But well, I´m not wasting my time thinking about this, about your doubts and uncertainties, I have so much to worry about, and the first one, is Me, and not anybody else. I need to live for me, to laugh for me, to enjoy life. So don´t worry, your doubts are yours, you have to deal with all of that without me. I am not gonna give you absolutely sure, when it´s just yourself that have to find it.
(Continued)

Forever hold this heart that I will give to you

2011-08-23T01:26:00.000+01:00

You failed me. Yes you did that. And I was so upset ate the time I nearly ended up everything we have. The with you worries showing up, and your love, I just saw I have exagerated all. I was so bad, that I just needed you for just a little, and I tried to say that to you, but you misunterpreted and I didn`t clear myself for you. I just thought "You weren`t there when I needed you the most". And I don´t know if that´s true, but we´ll see in time. I just melt away all the worries with your love and sweetness that you gave me today. And I just couldn´t get mad at you. Your love for me clear all up, and it´s all that matters. For now.

(Continued)

2011-08-21T00:39:00.002+01:00

"O homem comum é exigente com os outros; o homem superior é exigente consigo próprio."

by Marcus Aurelius

I will never be picky with you, cause I love the way you are. Yeah, I´m picky with me, I´ve always been, and I always will, and that´s not because of you. If you think I´m picky than you can not see me clearly. You have such a luck, not to have a girlfriend always picking on you, that she want that, and you have to do that, and it´s not the way she likes, etc, etc. That´s not me. I have never pick on your cloth, your hair, your shoes, or wathever you have to change or I didn´t like. Unfortunately you have criticized my hair, shoes, clothes, nails, and wathever you saw you didn´t like. And I take it for a joke, but now I see there are too many jokes, and I´ve been too peaceful with that. I hope that don´t get in the way of our relationship. Cause if I see it´s not just you´re worried about me, or showing that you care about me, I´ll feel pushed, and I don´t like to have someone choosing the way I have to live. So you said "women are so picky". Well sure it isn´t about me, cause you don´t even see what you have in front of you. You don´t even see the playful and happy girl that you have. She doesn´t want to pick on you! She doesn´t want to push you to do things, to change the way you do things. She just want to be with you. That´s enough for her to be happy. It just needs a moment with you and that´s enough. And you know why? Because she spend so much time without you, without your smile, without your laugh, your touch, your voice, that she does not want to be picky right now. She just wants to enjoy the time she´s with you. Just open your eyes and see her.

(Continued)

"She's glad for one day of comfort

Only because she has suffered...

Fully alive,
More than most, ready to smile, and love life
Fully alive,
And she knows how to believe in futures..."

´Fully Alive´ by Flyleaf

Savoring this heart that's healing

2011-08-20T00:20:00.000+01:00

I´m starting to believe in you. To believe in your fear. Today I can see it clearly. This can ended soon. This might not going too further. And I´m so scared just to the thought of this, that I start thinking how I will ended up when I´m still so in love with you? How can I? I saw us in silence today, and the last topic was the weather. I watched it so afraid of losing you. And you didn´t promised nothing at all. You just promised me love, but your love is picky. Your heart does not want just to love and be with the person he loves, and does not want to promise he´ll never leaves, he just keeps it all open. I´m just to scared to move. And I can´t stop this now, I have to move forward to know where I´m gonna end this.

(Continued)

If you choose me, I´m waiting for you

2011-08-19T01:00:00.001+01:00

Fear. That´s the word of the day. Yes, now I can see clearly the fear is blinded you. You don´t even feel comfortable "yet" to have me in your family meetings, like one anniversary. Well, I was shocked at the moment but then I saw by your difficult to explain "Why?" when I asked, that you have the Fear. And the Fear tells you to be afraid, tells you that I won´t stay long, so it´s better not to comfort yourself to my presence. Specially seeing myself with and in your family, like an important piece of you, like an important part of your life, like part of your own family. So you just don´t want to do that right now. And you know why? Because you´re not sure about me. Am I the right person for you? Am I the person you want to spend your life with? Am I your soulmate? Am I the one you want to make it worth for? You don´t have answers for these questions. And if that remains too long, after all this time that you had to think things through, you´ll just gonna loose me. So look for the answers in your heart without your fears. You have the answers just waiting for you to find out. In the meantime my heart will always be open to you...until I see it´s not worth it.
(Continued)

I believe, what if you believe me now?

2011-08-16T23:06:00.004+01:00

There was a time when I believe I was "your world" just like you said to me. I believe I was everything and the only thing you need. If the world now crashed down, if something happens, you´ll not need anything else, just me, your world, it was enough for you. But not now. Now you want more, you want to know new people, new friends, new girl friends, you want to be more time with friends than with me, you want to do activities with friends. I am not enough for you anymore. Does that hurts me? Just a "little". I understand your need for friends, for your own activities without me, cause I do that too, and because you have lost your true passion and hobbie. What hurts me is when you put some activities above me, that you almost forgot me. That hurts. I am longing that someday you´ll see I always was your world, even when you were finding new friends, gathering with new possible girl mates. And in that moment you´ll just see I was the best thing that ever happened to you. I was the one. I was always there for you. I accepted all your extravagances in a blink of an eye, because nothing else matters than love and give that love to you, and receiving back that love was all I need. I hope one day, not knowing If I will be there for you, but one day, you´ll see all you needed was there just to take, with no price, with no drama, with no confusion. I was there. And I know in time I would not be always there for you. You ask why? Because if you don´t believe in our love, if you don´t believe I am the one for you, than I just have to let you go. I´ll never gonna push you into me, into us. It´s your choice. Are you confused? Are you insecure? Are you in doubt? If you are I won´t stay long, I deserve much more than this. And if the true love of my life do not believe in us, in me, I´ll just go away and let he be happy. Maybe he´ll find the one person he believes is for a lifetime, maybe he will think of me that way, maybe he´ll open his eyes. Unfortunately I can´t do that for him. He has to do that for himself. So let´s see what´s gonna be your choice while you´re still with me. Do you feel my love? Do you believe me?

(Continued)

Don't let someone become a priority in your life when you are just an option in theirs

2011-08-16T01:05:00.004+01:00

When you kept the truth hidden in your thoughts, the words are so hard to hear. The sentences, the thoughts you´ve hold, are now in my power, are said in the open space, where I can hear it, and it feels so hard to hear again "I´m not sure of us, I´m not sure if we are compatible, but in time we see, I don´t know if we gonna make it" and only after that I hear "I love you so much" and the "but...", "...I don´t know if this is gonna work out this time", when I am just thinking "This is the time, this is the moment for us to make it worth, to just embrace our love, to be happy and forget all the messed up we´ve made, it´s the time to start ´forever´ cause if we love each other so much to over through all this messed up, we gonna win this time".It´s hard, so hard to hear something that isn´t what you feel, what you thought he would feel too, after all this time, and then the truth: he thinks you didn´t change at all, he thinks you are just saying things you wanna hear, he don´t even knows that, for a while, you´ve moved forward...without him. But you don´t what to hurt him with it is now your past, your stories, while he´s speaking the true with a cocky smile, trying to let you know he is the man and you´re just a girl, who is completely crazy about him, who overcome so much to be here with him, but he doesn´t know nothing about that, he´s still seeing that shy little girl, that don´t do social gathering, not even can be independent: a image he wrongly created a long time ago about the girl he truly loves.And again I can see clearly that I made the same mistake again, he have in the palm of his hand again, not because I´ll do anything for him, but because I can totally be me, but still love him so much, that I can stand hear things that hurts me from his mouth, and I can even smile in the end, not completely satisfied, and he know it, but I´m there for him. I didn´t runaway, I didn´t turn my back for him.
And you know what? Now I know how to live without you, I know I´m stronger and independent than ever and your absence in the last months just made me realize how I am, and no! I´m not gonna give me up, not even for your love. I am my priority now. When someone treats you like a second choice, you just know that you are your priority, don´t ever give up to fight for your identity when someone is threaten it. Do you know what hurts the most? Hearing you tell, again, that maybe it´s better for us, not to be together frequently, it hurts so much, and I get so nervous just to get the answer I want to give you "that is the worst thing you can do to us, because that will give us distance". For someone who´s always pushing me about moving together , that is really contradictory and just projects your insecurity about us, about our relationship, it projects your confusion about us, but definitely, it projects your fears, and that I can assure you, I have that fears too, and are always right here, waiting for a sign of ancient mistakes coming again between us, and sometimes that eats me alive. So yeah, I´m here, I wanna see if finally we can be together, cause I´m sick and tired of dramas and scenes, I just want to be with the one I love, and If we can´t make it, than I´m gonna walk away with dignity, no regrets and no hate. But one thing I can assure you: I will love you my entire life. When you meet the one true love of your life, you can recognize him, it may take a while to recognize that look, that feeling, but when you´re sure, it will never change in all your life, you will always now, he was the ´one´. So let´s move on my love, and see where the road is gonna take us...

(Continued)

You don´t need to breath, You don´t have to love me all the time...

2011-08-12T22:44:00.002+01:00

Have you ever had those days when you didn´t feel love from the person you most loved?...

I can feel the pressure it´s getting closer now

2011-08-08T23:50:00.000+01:00

Tell me where our time went
And if it was time well spent
Just don't let me fall asleep
Feeling empty again

Cuz I fear I might break
And I fear I can't take it
Tonight i'll lie awake
Feeling empty

I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you

Now that I'm losing hope
And there's nothing else to show
For all the days that we spent
Carry away from home

Some things I'll never know
And I had to let them go
I'm sitting all alone
Feeling empty

I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
Without you

Some things I'll never know
And I had to let them go
Some things I'll never know
And I had to let them go
But I'm sitting all alone
Feeling empty

I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
You're better off without me

Go on and scare me to death...

2011-08-08T00:49:00.001+01:00

Bound to your side and trapped in silence
Just a possession
Is the sex or only violence
That feeds your obsession

You send me to a broken state
Where I can take the pain
Just long enough
That I am numb
That I just disappear

So go on and fight me
Go on and scare me to death
Tell me I asked for it
Tell me I'll never forget
You could give me anything but love
Anything but love

Does it feel good tonight
Hurt me with nothing
Some sort of sick satisfaction
You get from mind fucking

Oh stripped down to my naked core
The darkest corners of my mind are yours
That's where you live
That's where you breathe

So go on and fight me
Go on and scare me to death
Dare me to leave you
Tell me I'd never forget
You could give me anything but love
Anything but love

Without any faith
Without any light
Can dare me to live
Can dare me to lie
Inside I am dead

So go on and fight me
Go on and scare me to death
I'll be the victim
You'll be the voice in my head
You could give me anything but love
Anything but love
Anything but love
Anything but love
Anything but love
Anything but love

2011-08-04T02:11:00.000+01:00

Please, please, please..can the Goddess be kind to me and just give me some guy friends that don´t fall in love with me or don´t want something more then friendship??? Pleaaassseeeee!! I'm really discouraged about this issue...

2011-08-02T01:33:00.000+01:00

"For me it’s always been you, always. And I’ve tried to fight it and I’ve tried to deny it. But i cant. Your undeniable..."

2011-07-28T21:57:00.001+01:00

Do you know it breaks my heart when you talk about leaving Portugal? It feels like my whole world is gonna crash down...

2011-07-26T23:15:00.000+01:00

Everyone of them want to pull me into their world...but...my path is lonely and confused...

They all want to bind me in their world...but...I just want to be free...

Cystal clear

2011-07-22T00:30:00.001+01:00

The light in the end of the tunnel dissipated
just like the early mist in the morning
it wasn´t made to last...
Always the same disappointing creature,
always the same mistakes,
always the same emptiness of love,
you still be...
I´m not important at all to you,
just an empty shadow
...from who you stole a heart...
Now it´s crystal clear
you don´t deserve not a single tear of love
from the empty space where there was a heart once....

The scars of your love, they leave me breathless

2011-07-16T21:14:00.000+01:00

There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bringing me out the dark
Finally, I can see you crystal clear
Go head and sell me out and I'll lay your ship bare

See how I'll leave with every piece of you
Don't underestimate the things that I will do

There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch and its bringing me out the dark

The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't help feeling

We could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

Baby, I have no story to be told
But I've heard one of you and I'm gonna make your head burn
Think of me in the depths of your despair
Making a home down there, as mine sure won't be shared

(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
The scars of your love remind me of us
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
I can't help feeling

Could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside of your hand
But you played it with a beating

Throw your soul through every open door
Count your blessings to find what you look for
Turn my sorrow into treasured gold
You pay me back in kind and reap just what you sow

(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
We could have had it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
It all, it all, it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

Could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand

But you played it
You played it
You played it
You played it to the beat

2011-06-29T13:24:00.001+01:00

Now I see...I meant nothing to him...

I climb, I slip, I fall With my undying love

2011-06-26T01:41:00.001+01:00

I climb, I slip, I fall
Reaching for your hands
But I lay here all alone
Sweating all your blood

If I could find out how
To make you listen now
Because I'm starving for you here
With my undying love
And I, I will

Breathe for love tomorrow
Cause there's no hope for today
Breathe for love tomorrow
Cause maybe there's another way

I climb, I slip, I fall
Reaching for your hands
But I lay here all alone
Sweating all your blood

If I could find out how
To make you listen now
Because I'm starving for you here
With my undying love
And I, I will

Breathe for love tomorrow
Cause there's no hope for today
Breathe for love tomorrow
Cause maybe there's another way

Breathe for love tomorrow
Cause there's no hope for today
Breathe for love tomorrow
Cause maybe there's another way

I climb, I slip, I fall
Into your empty hands
But I lay here all alone
Sweating all your blood

E outras vezes não volta.

2011-06-24T21:53:00.001+01:00

"Quando amamos alguém, não perdemos só a cabeça, perdemos também o nosso coração. Ele salta para fora do peito, e depois, quando volta, já não é o mesmo, é outro, com cicatrizes novas. ás vezes volta maior se o amor foi feliz, outras, regressa feito numa bola de trapos, é preciso reconstruí-lo com paciência, dedicação e muito amor-próprio. E outras vezes não volta. Fica do outro lado da vida, na vida de quem não quis ficar ao nosso lado."

But at the end it's still so lonely

2011-06-23T01:21:00.001+01:00

In the night, I hear 'em talk
The coldest story ever told.
Somewhere far along this road he lost his soul...
To a woman so heartless.
How could you be so heartless?
How could you be so heartless?

How could you be so
Cold as the winter wind when it breeze, yo
Just remember that you talking to me, yo
You need to watch the way you talking to me, yo
I mean after all the things that we been through
I mean after all the things we got into
And yo, I know some things that you ain't told me
Yo, I did some things but that's the old me
And now you wanna gimme me back
You gon' show me
So you walk round like you don't know me
You got a new friend
I got homies
But at the end it's still so lonely

In the night, I hear 'em talk
The coldest story ever told.
Somewhere far along this road he lost his soul...
To a woman so heartless.
How could you be so heartless?
How could you be so heartless?

How could you be so Dr. Evil
You're bringing out a side of me that I don't know,
I decided we wasn't gon' speak so why are up 3 a.m. on the phone,
Why does she be so mad at me for
Honey I don't know she hot and cold,
I won't stop and mess my groove up cause I already know how this thing goes,

You run and tell your friends you're leavin' me,
They say that they don't see what you see in me,
You wait a couple months then you gone' see,
You'll never find nobody better than me

In the night, I hear 'em talk
The coldest story ever told.
Somewhere far along this road he lost his soul...
To a woman so heartless.
How could you be so heartless?
How could you be so heartless?

Talkin', talkin', talkin', talk
Baby let's just knock it off
They don't know what we been through
They don't know 'bout me and you
So I got something new to see
And you just gon' keep hatin' me
And we just gon' be enemies
I know you can't believe
I could just leave it wrong
And you can't make it right
I'm gon' take off tonight
Into the night

I hear 'em talk
The coldest story ever told.
Somewhere far along this road he lost his soul...
To a woman so heartless.
How could you be so heartless?
How could you be so heartless?

In the night, I hear 'em talk
The coldest story ever told.
Somewhere far along this road he lost his soul...
To a woman so heartless.
How could you be so heartless?
How could you be so heartless?

2011-06-18T12:44:00.003+01:00

Some people are just a down road that never ends...The dirty little secrets always comes to the surface...

You could be my hero, If only I could let go...

2011-06-14T21:14:00.001+01:00

What do you do when you're stuck,
Because the one that you love,
Has pushed you away,
And you can't deal with the pain,
And now you're trying to fix me,
Mend what he did,
I'll find the piece that i'm missing,
But I still miss him,
I miss him, i'm missing him,
Oh I miss him, I miss him i'm missng him

And you're sitting in the front row,
Wanna be first in line,
Waiting by my window,
Giving me all your time,
You could be my hero,
If only I could let go,
But his love is still in me,
Like a broken arrow.
Like a broken arrow.

He's the thorn in my flesh
That I can't take out
He's stealing my breath
When you're around,
And now you're trying to convince me,
He wasn't worth it,
But you can't complete me,
It's the thought that he's missing,

I miss him, I'm missing him,
Oh I miss him I miss him, i'm missing him,

And you're standing in the front row,
Wanna be first in line,
Waiting by my window,
Giving me all your time,
You could be my hero,
If only I could let go,
But his love is still in me,
Live a broken arrow,
Like a broken arrow.

What do you do
When your hearts in two places?
You feel great but you're torn inside.
You feel love but you just can't embrace it,
When you found the right one at the wrong time.

And you're
Standing in the front row,
Wanna be first in line,
Waiting by my window,
Giving me all your time,
You could be my hero,
If only I could let go,
But his love is still in me,
Like a broken arrow.
Like a broken arrow...

2011-06-11T14:50:00.002+01:00

You will always have my soul....I gave you my heart, but I´ve never got it back...

You wouldn't even recognize me anymore

2011-06-08T03:23:00.001+01:00

It starts with
One thing I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time

All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away

It's so unreal
Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on, but didn't even know
Or wasted it all just to watch you go

I kept everything inside
And even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be
A memory of a time when

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn't even matter

One thing, I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how

I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/l/linkin-park-lyrics/in-the-end-lyrics.html ]
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised

It got so far
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me in the end

You kept everything inside
And even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be
A memory of a time when

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn't even matter

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There's only one thing you should know

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There's only one thing you should know

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn't even matter

Tell me what the fuck is wrong with me

2011-06-07T00:23:00.000+01:00

Wake in a sweat again
Another day's been laid to waste
In my disgrace

Stuck in my head again
Feels like I'll never leave this place
There's no escape

I'm my own worst enemy

[chorus]
I've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say

Take this all away
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong
With me
[end chorus]

I don't know what to take
Thought I was focused but I'm scared
I'm not prepared

I hyperventilate
Looking for help somehow somewhere
And no one cares

I'm my own worst enemy

[chorus]
I've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say

Take this all away
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong
With me
[end chorus]

[bridge]
Goddddddd!!!!

Put me out of my misery
Put me out of my misery
Put me out of my
Put me out of my fucking misery
[end bridge]

[chorus]
I've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say

Take this all away
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong
With me
[end chorus]

2011-06-06T01:16:00.002+01:00

I miss that feeling and the emotion...and of the truth! I feel kinda lost in this lusty empty world...!

I'm out of this world come with me to my planet

2011-06-05T01:11:00.000+01:00

Am I throwing you off?
Nope
Didn't think so

How you doin' young lady
That feelin' that you givin' really drivin' me crazy
You don't have ta play about the joke
I was at a loss of words first time that we spoke

If you looking for a girl that'll treat you right
If you lookin' for her in the day time with the light
You might be the type if I play my cards right
I'll find out by the end of the night

You expect me to just let you hit it
But will you still respect me if you get it
All I can do is try, gimme one chance
What's the problem I don't see no ring on your hand

I be the first to admit it
I'm curious about you, you seem so innocent
You wanna get in my world, get lost in it
Boy I'm tired of running, let's walk for a minute

Promiscuous girl, wherever you are
I'm all alone and it's you that I want
Promiscuous boy, you already know
That I'm all yours, what you waiting for?

Promiscuous girl, you're teasing me
You know what I want and I got what you need
Promiscuous boy, let's get to the point
'Cause we're on a roll, are you ready?

Roses are red, some diamonds are blue
Chivalry is dead but you're still kinda cute
Hey, I can't keep my mind off you
Where you at, do you mind if I come through

I'm out of this world come with me to my planet
Get you on my level do you think that you can handle it?
They call me Thomas, last name Crown
Recognize game I'm a lay mine's down

I'm a big girl I can handle myself
But if I get lonely I'ma need your help
Pay attention to me I don't talk for my health
I want you on my team, so does everybody else

Baby, we can keep it on the low
Let your guard down ain't nobody gotta know
If you with it girl I know a place we can go
What kind of girl do you take me for?

Promiscuous girl, wherever you are
I'm all alone and it's you that I want
Promiscuous boy, you already know
That I'm all yours, what you waiting for?

Promiscuous girl, you're teasing me
You know what I want and I got what you need
Promiscuous boy, let's get to the point
'Cause we're on a roll, are you ready?

Don't be mad, don't get mean
Don't get mad, don't be mean
Hey, Don't be mad, don't get mean
Don't get mad, don't be mean

Wait, I don't mean no harm
I can see you with my T-shirt on
I can see you with nothing on
Feeling on me before you bring that on

Bring that on, you know what I mean
Girl, I'm a freak you shouldn't say those things
I'm only trying to get inside your brain
To see if you can work me the way you say

It's okay, it's alright
I got something that you gon' like
Hey, is that the truth or are you talking trash
Is your game M.V.P. like Steve Nash

Promiscuous girl, wherever you are
I'm all alone and it's you that I want
Promiscuous boy, I'm calling your name
But you're driving me crazy the way you're making me wait

Promiscuous girl, you're teasing me
You know what I want and I got what you need
Promiscuous boy, we're one in the same
So we don't gotta play games no more

No, you don´t mean nothing at all to me

2011-06-03T22:53:00.002+01:00

In the day, in the night
Say it right, say it all
You either got it or you don't
You either stand or you fall

When your will is broken
When it slips from your hands
When there's no time for joking
There's a hole in the plan

Oh, you don't mean nothing at all to me
No, you don't mean nothing at all to me
Do you've got what it takes to set me free
Oh, you could mean everything to me

I can't say that I'm not lost and at fault
I can't say that I don't love the light and the dark
I can't say that I don't know that I am alive
And all of what I feel I could show you tonight

Oh, you don't mean nothing at all to me
No, you don't mean nothing at all to me
Do you've got what it takes to set me free
Oh, you could mean everything to me

From my hands I can give you, something that I made
From my mouth I can sing you another brick that I laid
From my body I can show you a place, God knows
You should know this place is holy, do you really want to go?

2011-06-02T16:16:00.003+01:00

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

(Marilyn Monroe)

Thanks for acting like you cared

2011-05-28T02:34:00.000+01:00

You were everything, everything,
that I wanted.
We were meant to be, supposed to be,
But we lost it.
All the memories so close to me
Just fade away…
All this time you were pretending…
So much for my happy ending.
....
It's nice to know that you were there,
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one.
It's nice to know we had it all.
Thanks for watching as I fall,
And letting me know we were done.

Take a leap of fate..

2011-05-27T22:52:00.000+01:00

You've fallen right out of the sky
I could swear you were natural high
Volcanoes erupting inside
When I see the sparkle in your eyes

But you don't even realize
'Cause you've been hurt so many times
They play with your heart, told you lies
They were wrong all along you were right

But if you could see my love through a bird's eye
You, you would know how beautiful it is to

Fly, baby, fly
We gotta fly to stay alive
These words, these words
No magic till we try
Take a leap, leap of fate
Reach for the stars in the night
Break the curse of this earth
These miracles up in the sky
With love birds fly

Like angels from heaven on earth
We know that love will never die
The dust of the pain and the dirt
And discover the diamond inside

I'm not saying I'm the perfect man
But I swear I will give it a try
I'm no pilot,I've got no wings but I
I know we will survive

'Cause if you could see my love through a bird's eye
You, you would know how beautiful it is to

Fly, baby, fly
We gotta fly to stay alive
These words, these words
No magic till we try
Take a leap, leap of fate
Reach for the stars in the night
Break the curse of this earth
These miracles up in the sky
With love birds fly
(repeat)

2011-05-27T00:43:00.002+01:00

It was all just a lie...he played with your heart, he told you lies...this is how a beautiful monster turns out to be such a horrible creature inside...the truth always finds a way to show how beautiful your life can be...if you´re willing to take a step out...

I turned off my emotions...

2011-05-21T02:11:00.000+01:00

Do you remember in Vampire Diaries when they say that vampires can turn off their emotions, so they can be free from the scars and the emotions that haunt them? Well, I think I kinda can do that too...I turned away my back at that person that I thought I spend all my life with...My love was unconditional...My promises were real...But as I turned away and tried to convince myself it was him that doesn´t want me; it wasn´t him my special one for a lifetime; and remembered all the awful things he´ve done to me...I just turned off my emotions! But I know, that if I remembered that sweet moments of ours and If he would kiss me again..my emotions would, for certain, turned on again!...Well, for now, I just have to move on with my emotions turned off...and If I find another special person, I have to know..cause I have to turn my emotions on again...

I´m holding a heart...

2011-05-19T02:54:00.000+01:00

I moved on...

2011-05-17T03:43:00.001+01:00

I feel really scared...in this new terrain. I feel scared cause I never thought I would move on my life so easily without you...and that easier scares me to death! I´m falling apart because I though I love you so much, I though I wouldn´t be healed so easier from the scars you placed upon me..and here I am! I am moving on! I am so far away from you, that I ´m scared of this easier...I am scared of moving on so easily...I am scared of living happy without you, without your voice, without your smile, without your love...I am scared of the short time that have passed and that I´ve moved on on such a short time, although when I think of you it hurts so much it makes me cry! I´m really scared! I´m scared to death!! And I´m feeling dizzy on this new terrain that I crossed so fast, though it was so far away...! I´m scared that I got here so soon...without you! I guess you were wrong...I´m stronger than you thought...! I think I moved on...!

My promisse is I will hurt you

2011-05-07T21:48:00.003+01:00

Its haunting
This hold that you have over me
I grow so weak

I see you
And everything around you fades
And I cant see

You can never know what it is you do to me

I cant take what you do to me
I cant take it [x2]

No matter what I say or what I do
I know how this will end
So I turn it away now before we begin

And now matter what you say or what you do
I know how this will end
So I'm turning away now

I'm dangerous for you [x2]

You touch me
And I can barely make a move
And I cant breathe

You never know what it is you do to me

I cant take what you do to me
I cant take it [x2]

No matter what I say or what I do
I know how this will end
So I'm turning away now before we begin

And no matter what you say or what you do
I know how this will end
So I'm turning away now

I'm dangerous

The only promise I could make
Is that my promise is a lie
The only promise I could make you
Is that my promise is a lie

No matter what I say or what I do
I know how this will end
So I'm turning away now before we begin

And no matter what you say or what you do
I know how this will end
So I'm turning away now

I'm dangerous for you [x6]

I'm dangerous, I'm dangerous for you

My promise is I will hurt you [x4]

Desilusão

2011-05-05T21:44:00.002+01:00

“The sudden disappointment of a hope leaves a scar which the ultimate fulfillment of that hope never entirely removes.” (Thomas Hardy)

Quando eu penso que já nada me irá surpreender pela negativa, aí cai um golpe do destino, fado, wathever, e desiludo-me completamente. Não é por ter estado iludida, é por já não esperar nada, e afinal aí vem mais um surpresa! Surpresa má! Desilusão! Cai tudo por terra! Até as minhas considerações passadas sobre tal pessoa caem por terra! Nunca uma pessoa pode descer tão baixo o seu nível e ser tão cruel, arrogante, egoísta e imaturo! Desilusão completa...

Expect the worst. Then you´ll see the best!

2011-05-05T02:17:00.000+01:00

When we thought we found someone who is really different, really better, then all falls apart, and is just a mask, hiding all that we already know...better not expect the best is yet to come...cause it won´t...when we have seen the worst, the better is hard to find...our perfectionism wins!

I leave you to wonder...

2011-05-02T00:21:00.000+01:00

Drove on by your house today,
I know it's hard to stay away.
It's allright, you pick a fight,
But my heart is on the tray.

Whatever you may think of me
Your know that there'll never be
Someone who loves you more than I do.
One day you will understand
You had me in the palm of your hand,
And I will be gone, I leave you to wonder.

I took a breath, looked at your door,
The times that I've been here before.
Your smiling face, your warm embrace,
Those days are not here anymore.

Whatever you may think of me
Your know that there'll never be
Someone who loves you more than I do.
One day you will understand
You had me in the palm of your hand,
And I will be gone, I leave you to wonder.

Drove on by, I don't know why
It's so hard to stay away.
I kiss goodbye, a teary eye,
It's another lonely day.

Be a brave

2011-05-01T22:38:00.001+01:00

"On battles braves fell
But their souls still live
And forever they will be remembered
The power of the braves
Is not on their swords
Not on their strengh or on anger
But on their hearts
You may loose the battle
You may loose your life
But never, never
Let your heart freeze
Be a brave, and live forever"

Oh this brand new skin stretched across scared terrain

2011-04-30T00:59:00.000+01:00

And the tears fall like rain
Down my face again
Oh the words you wouldn't say
And the games you played
With my unfoolish heart
Oh I should have known this from the start

Ohh the winter and spring
Going in hand in hand
Just like my love and pain
How the thought of you cuts deep within the vein
Oh this brand new skin stretched across scared terrain

I don't want to be let down
I don't want to live my life again
Don't want to be lead down the same old road
So I don't want to be let down
I don't want to live my lies again
Don't want to be lead down the same old road

All those years down the drain
Love was not enough when you want everything
What I gave to you and now the end must start
Oh I should have listened to my heart

'Cause I don't want to be let down
I don't want to live my life again
Don't want to be lead down the same old road
So I don't want to be let down
I don't want to live my lies again
Don't want to be lead down the same old road

Ohh...

I don't want to be let down
I don't want to live my life again
Don't want to be lead down the same old road
So I don't want to be let down
I don't want to live my lies again
Don't want to be lead down the same old road

Amar como te amei ninguém mais ama

2011-04-28T13:28:00.001+01:00

Amar como te amei ninguém mais ama

De tanto que nem sei se vale a pena

Amar, e sempre amar a quem mais clama

O nosso desamor feito dilema

Dar e não saber se quem recebe

É cego ou não quer ver toda a saudade

Que existe, e que persiste e não percebe

O triste deste amor em fim de tarde

Ninguém mais do que tu foi tão verdade

Das coisas que nos dão razão à vida

Prisão que ontem foi de liberdade

E hoje se transforma em chaga viva

Amar como te amei ninguém mais ama

De tanto que nem sei se vale a pena

Manter nesta paixão acesa a chama

Ou apagar num sopro este dilema

Ninguém mais do que tu foi tão verdade

Das coisas que nos dão razão à vida

Prisão que ontem foi de liberdade

E hoje se transforma em chaga viva

In pieces...

2011-04-27T19:20:00.000+01:00

Telling me to go
But hands beg me to stay

Your lips say that you love
Your eyes say that you hate

There's truth in your lies
Doubt in your faith
What you build you lay to waste

This truth in your lies
Doubt in your faith
All I've got's what you didn't take

[Chorus]
So I, I won't be the one
Be the one to leave this
In pieces

And you
You will be alone
Alone with all your secrets
And regrets

Don't lie
[End Chorus]

You promise me the sky
Then toss me like a stone

You wrap me in your arms
And chill me to the bone

There's truth in your lies
Doubt in your faith
All I've got's what you didn't take

[Chorus]
So I, I won't be the one
Be the one to leave this
In pieces

And you
You will be alone
Alone with all your secrets
And regrets

Don't lie

So I, I won't be the one
Be the one to leave this
In pieces

And you
You will be alone
Alone with all your secrets
And regrets

Don't lie
[End Chorus]

Vou contar-te um segredo

2011-04-24T22:35:00.001+01:00

“Pega no telefone e liga-lhe, não tens nada a perder. Diz-lhe que tens saudades dele, que ninguém te faz tão feliz, que os teus dias são secos, frios e áridos, como um deserto imenso, sem oásis nem miragens, sempre que não estão juntos. Pega no telefone e liga-lhe. Se ele não atender, deixa-lhe uma mensagem. Ou então escreve-lhe um sms a dizer que queres estar com ele. Não te alongues nem elabores, os homens nunca percebem o que queres deixar cair nas entrelinhas. Tens de ser clara, directa e incisiva. E não podes ter medo, porque o medo é o maior inimigo do amor. Cada vez que deixares o medo entrar-te nas tuas veias, ele vai gelar-te o sangue e paralisar-te os nervos, ficas transformada numa estátua de sal e morres por dentro. A vida é uma incógnita, hoje estás aqui, amanhã podes ficar doente, ou cair-te um piano em cima quando fores a andar na rua. Ainda há pessoas que atiram pianos pela janela, sabias? Nunca se sabe como será o dia de amanhã, por isso não percas tempo e pega no telefone e liga-lhe. Tenho a certeza que ele te vai ouvir, tenho a certeza que ele te vai ajudar, tenho a certeza que ele, à sua maneira - e é tão estranha a forma como os homens gostam de nós - ainda gosta de ti. Mesmo que já não te ame, ainda gosta de ti, como tu vais aprender a gostar dele, quando a vida te obrigar a desistir deste amor. Ele está longe, mas olha para ti por entre memórias, presentes e flores. À noite, entre sonhos alterados pelo álcool e as drogas leves, tu apareces-lhe na cama e ele volta a sentir o cheiro da tua pele e volta a amar-te com todas as suas forças. Ainda que não acredites, tu viverás para sempre nele, tal como ele vive em ti, na memória das tua células, num passado que pode ser o teu escudo, mesmo que não seja o teu futuro. Pega no telefone e liga-lhe. Fala com ele de coração aberto, diz-lhe o que queres ver, chora se for preciso, pede-lhe que te diga se sim ou se não. Se for preciso, por mais que te custe, pede-lhe para escrever a palavra NÃO. Pede-lhe uma resposta para o teu coração. Mais vale saberes que acabou tudo do que viveres com as laranjas todas no ar, qual malabarista exausto, sem saberes nem como nem quando elas vão cair. Mais vale chorar a tristeza de um amor perdido do que sonhar com um oásis que se tranformou numa miragem. Pega no telefone e liga-lhe. Liga as vezes que forem precisas até conseguires uma resposta, a paz de uma certeza, mesmo que essa certeza não seja a que desejavas ouvir. Mas não fiques quieta, à espera que a vida te traga respostas. a vida é tua, tens de ser tu a vivê-la, não podes deixar que ela passe por ti, tu é que passas por ela. E quando todas as laranjas caírem, apanha-as com cuidado, guarda-as num cesto e muda de profissão. O circo é para quem não tem casa nem país, não é vida para ninguém. Guarda as laranjas num cesto, leva-as para casa e faz um bolo de saudades para esquecer a mágoa. E nunca deixes de sonhar que, um dia, vais encontrar alguém mais próximo e mais generoso, que te ensine a ser feliz, mesmo com todas as pedras que encontrarem no caminho. Larga as laranjas e muda de vida. A vida vai mudar contigo.“

Margarida Rebelo Pinto, “Vou contar-te um segredo”

2011-04-22T01:37:00.000+01:00

Nunca nem eu nem coração
Fomos mais que um vestígio de passagem.Entre um anseio vão e um sonho vão.
Parceiros em prestidigitação,Caímos ambos pelo alçapão.
Foi esta a nossa vida e a nossa viagem.

Fernando Pessoa

To wish impossible things

2011-03-23T02:37:00.000Z

remember how it used to be
when the sun would fill up the sky
remember how we used to feel
those days would never end
those days would never end

remember how it used to be
when the stars would fill the sky
remember how we used to dream
those nights would never end
those nights would never end

it was the sweetness of your skin
it was the hope of all we might have been
that fills me with the hope to wish
impossible things

but now the sun shines cold
and all the sky is grey
the stars are dimmed by clouds and tears
and all i wish
is gone away
all i wish
is gone away

all i wish
is gone away

The only one

2011-03-23T02:34:00.000Z

There is no-one left in the world
That I can hold onto
There is really no-one left at all
There is only you
And if you leave me now
You leave all that we were
Undone
There is really no-one left
You are the only one

And still the hardest part for you
To put your trust in me
I love you more than I can say
Why won't you just believe?

A Need to learn to let you go

2011-03-22T23:45:00.001Z

I thought it will get easier, as our battle ended, has our torment ended.
Our swords are now down, and we can finally rest.
I thought it was getting easier, but I was wrong.
It is getting harder, and harder, as the days pass by.
I want to pull the sword back to the battle, but there´s no one in the battlefield.
There´s only me, with one sword.
And it´s more harder than I think.
To not have the one who owns my heart with the sword.
He just stood there, happy, resting from the battle.
There´s no more sword in his hands.
He belongs to the outer battle.
I thought it was easier letting you go, letting you be free.
I thought it was easier to set you free.
But I have never learn how to let you go.
I have never learn to sacrifice my heart for you.
Until I learn it, it´ll get harder, and harder..

O Amor sem Espada

2011-03-21T23:32:00.000Z

Tive de cravar a minha espada no solo

E terminar esta luta desigual...

Sim, desisti com toda a minha fraqueza

O sentimento, esse está mais forte que nunca,

mas o sentimento não tem espada,

o sentimento de nada serve sem espada para lutar...

Never...

2011-03-06T23:44:00.002Z

Never the one

Never the someone

I am nothing at all

I am no substance

"...mas"

2011-02-09T17:42:00.000Z

Há sempre um "mas" para tudo, o que consequentemente transforma a anterior afirmação em algo incompleto, ou numa verdade incompleta. O "mas" anula totalmente ou de forma parcial a afirmação anterior.

"Gostas de bróculos? Sim, mas só cozinhados com azeite" Se uma afirmação é geral, estamos então com o "mas" a especificar ou a tornar especifica uma parte da verdade geral que afirmámos anteriormente.

"Sim," gosto de bróculos, "mas" so gosto deles em azeite.

Mas não, caros bloggers, este post não é sobre bróculos, nem mesmo culinária. O "mas" que tenho afirmado com um tanto incómodo, nasceu de um "mas" que insiste sempre em surgir junto à mesma afirmação:

"Sim, eu aceito e gosto da tua maneira de ser, mas gostava que fosses x e x e x..."

Porque não podemos aceitar ou gostar de uma pessoa tal como ela é? Porque temos de acrescentar desejos nossos, à essência de uma pessoa? Incomoda-me incessantemente e inquieta-me correntemente a necessidade de tal uso do "mas" adicionado à essência e autenticidade de uma pessoa, nem irei referir como essência a alma, para não ferir susceptibilidades ateísticas, apenas essência, personalidade, autenticidade, maneira de ser na sua forma mais pura.

"Gosto de ti como és", ponto final, "Gosto da tua maneira de ser", ponto final.

O ponto final é a mais completa afirmação de uma anterior afirmação, não invalida a afirmação, como o "mas" insiste em fazê-lo. É a forma primordial de afirmar com a mais completa certeza que é aquilo, é aquela essência e nada mais possa eu adicionar para a tornar mais bela.

Resta-me esperar e desesperar por um dia ouvir alguém afirmar que aceita a minha essência seguida de um ponto final. Onde andas tu ponto final?

My nobody´s land

2010-06-28T01:35:00.001+01:00

Into the night

Trough the darkness

Forward

Till the darkness becomes me.

Carved sorry

and hiding angry,

My eyes show my witness.

Into the trees

said she

Into the darkness

said he.

Till the cold

turns to fire

Into the nobody´s land.

Fixed answers

Borrowed love

Sacred sorrow

of the saint called Earth.

Missing trains

Lost people

Walking paths

Beneath them.

Into the day

Trough the light

Forward

Till the light becomes me.

Uncarved sorry

and open angry,

My eyes show no witness.

Into the sky

said she

Into the light

said he.

Till the warm

becomes love

In the nobody´s land,

my home.

I am cut...

2010-05-07T13:14:00.000+01:00

I'm not a stranger
No I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore

A fragile flame aged
Is misery
And when our hearts meet
I know you see

I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when
I am cut

I may seem crazy
Or painfully shy
And these scars wouldn't be so hidden
If you would just look me in the eye
I feel alone here and cold here
Though I don't want to die
But the only anesthetic that makes me feel anything kills inside

I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when
I am cut
Pain
I am not alone
I am not alone

I'm not a stranger
No I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore

But I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I found it when
I was cut

I´m Alive

2010-04-16T12:42:00.002+01:00

Can I leave you without a single tear?

Can I walk away without looking behind?

I am fighting with my head and my heart

I can no longer hear my emotions

I can only hear the pounding of my thoughts

The head becomes the emperor of myself.

And while I´m thinking

My world turns into a new concept

My path turns into a new direction

I´m alive,

And I´m gonna make it worth it.

I see you

2010-04-14T19:41:00.001+01:00

Now I see you

It´s all clear to me now

I am too far away from you

But I see you

I see you´ve never
Been the one

It was only
A sweet dream

I was too lost
To understand your guidance

But I see you

Now that I am lost again

I can hardly see my path
With you

I can hardly feel emotion
With you

But I see you

Now that I am sinking
Into darkness

I can´t see the light
With you

I can´t see the one
With you

But I still
I see you

And while I´m here

I´m not seeking nothing at all

I can only see you

You

My misleading path.

Altough,
I see you
My road
With you
Ends here.